Author Archives: B. Blue Marbe

About B. Blue Marbe

Unpublished weird fiction writer. Aspiring shut-in. Collector of sea-themed tattoos and ill-advised life experiences.

Best Laid Plans: August 2018

082018

  • Total: 8,050 words
    • Write 350 words/day
    • 5 days/week (Tuesdays and Sundays off)
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Best Laid Plans: July 2018 (In Retrospect)

Wordcount goal: 7,350 words.
Words written: ~zero
Days writing fiction: also zero.

Excuses: School is hard. Depression and anxiety are hard. Living with a chronic illness is hard. There’s no way out except through, I know that, it’s just a matter of coming around to it is all.

School: Graphic design is hard. I was 5 weeks into the term before I found out how to access my etext (it requires searching “etext” on a specific page in the module, which is… not great?). My professor responds to any confusion by telling us that the curriculum is confusing and mentioning that she didn’t write the syllabus or lesson plan. I am paying my own money to work through a non-credit online course to learn the material and I’m also teaching myself how to use the programs by fucking googling my problems. This is bullshit and I hate it. This sort of thing is why online school is still considered a joke.

Freelance: Another good month! I like having spare money to spend on frivolous things and/or pay down my credit cards.

Best Laid Plans: July 2018

072018

  • Total: 7,350 words
    • Write 350 words/day
    • 5 days/week (Tuesdays and Sundays off)
  • Project: I want to keep working on “This House Isn’t Haunted” and see what I can turn it into. I also might take another shot at Death Drive.*
  • Soundtrack: I have been listening to She Wants Revenge and Industrial Music For Bondage Balls on very heavy rotation lately and there’s no reason it won’t continue. Also Celldweller, Blue Stahli, Faderhead, all my most favorite people, I don’t know why I keep listing my musical preferences it’s all just the same thing over and over and over. Maybe it’s a weird holdover from my LJ days.

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*Confession: Whenever I’m intensely compelled to revisit Death Drive, it’s because I’m intensely missing a particular friend that I don’t speak to anymore. Obviously I could text him and see whether we’re still anything to each other … but I’m a millenial and I hear we’re all terminally afraid of conversation or rejection or something or everything.

Best Laid Plans: June 2018 (In Retrospect)

Wordcount goal: 7,700 words.
Words written: ~1,800
Days writing fiction: 2.
Projects: “This House Isn’t Haunted,” expanded from the original fragment into a halfway decent (very) short story.

Excuses: It’s not much, hardly anything really, but I feel a lot more productive than I have in months. I’m writing consistently, even though most of it isn’t fiction or even anything I care about. This is not what I imagined for myself as a youngling when I wanted to be a professional writer, but I’m getting paid to write and it’s reasonably interesting work, so that’s something.

School: I got an A in Creative Writing (expected) and proved to myself that I don’t always suck and fail (surprising). I turned in all the assignments on time, except for the one weekend when the internet went out—I say the internet and not my internet because the internet went out for the entire town—something-something windstorm, something-something fallen tree, something-something severed internet cable … which was a happy accident because I hadn’t actually started the assignment yet (as I do) but at least I had a halfway valid excuse for not being on time. Next up: graphic design. I am scared I can’t do it but the assignments don’t look impossible and I’ll probably be okay if I can remember not to freak the fuck out when I get confused.

Freelance: This month was a good month. I had the highest number of blog assignments I’ve had from my contact and I got a couple other projects through the content mill site I’m on. I also signed up for a few other platforms recently and I’m waiting to hear back and see how those go.

Best Laid Plans: June 2018

062018

  • Total: 7,700 words
    • Write 350 words/day
    • 5 days/week (Tuesdays and Sundays off)
  • Project: Let’s say … a collection of shorter works until I decide what to work on for longer.
  • Soundtrack: Faderhead (emphasis on Night Physics and Black Friday), The Mission UK, Celldweller/Scandroid, Blue Stahli/Sunset Neon, Grendel (emphasis on Age of the Disposable Body), Covenant.

Best Laid Plans: May 2018 (In Retrospect)

Wordcount goal: 8,500 words.
Words written: 698.
Days writing: 1.
Projects: Tried a few things out, couldn’t get into it.

Excuses: General anxiety things, etc.

School: Going well for once. I am consistently turning in assignments on time, and receiving good feedback. I’m no longer stressed about participating in online discussions, and I’m much less stressed about taking feedback in general.

Freelance: Also going well. Corporate blog post writing suits me. It’s anonymous and I’m learning not to overthink things too much—just write the assignment, follow the spec sheet, and try to be fun/engaging if at all possible. Easy!

Best Laid Plans: May 2018

052018

  • Total 8,500 words
    • Write 350 words/day
    • 5 days/week (weekends off)
  • Project: Something/anything (as per usual). I’m leaning towards something that involves vampires and/or demons and/or traversing the realm of death (as I do).
  • Soundtrack: Faderhead (new album was out November 2017 but I just found it 4 days ago), She Wants Revenge (all of it), The Mission UK (most of it), Sisters of Mercy (all of it), Celldweller (mostly instrumentals), Blue Stahli (the instrumentals and the tracks where he sings with this girl-voice that I just can’t get over (unf)).